the anatomy of letting go

by paco estrada & one love

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in an attempt to step outside of the box of rock music, former front man/singersongwriter of the semi national band southfm whose featured hit song "dear claudia" landed them on mca records in 2003 and whose sophomore effort, swallowing the pill2005, brought them a dedicated regional following in texas, oklahoma, and louisiana, paco estrada set out to create a new sound for himself with new instruments and a whole new swagger...leading to paco estrada & one love's the anatomy of letting go.

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released August 8, 2009

no management. no label. executive producer marcia davis. co produced by jay-t and paco estrada. robi on cajon. zuriel on violins. emsy robinson on bass. blake day and diego zaltron on keys. paco estrada vocals and guitars.

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paco estrada Dallas, Texas

after nationally touring rock band southfm(mca/geffen/brando) played its final show in oct 2006, band's lead singer/songwriter continued to make music. expanding into different genres and exploring several pallets of sound, this site is the public documentation of the singer song writer's ideas and projects as he learns and grows as an artist. ... more

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Track Name: haunting me
i'll keep my ghost from haunting you, i'll just let go and walk away. and when you think that the clouds have cleared, i'm gonna call your name. i'm gonna dig a hole, and i'll hide inside. i'll let the dust and ashes blanket over me. when you take comfort in the silence of my dying, i'm gonna start to speak. cause i need you haunting me so i don't walk these streets alone for eternity, yes i need you haunting me. i need your memory, something to get me through. something to ease the pain of knowing that you're lying awake cause i keep on haunting you. i'll pack my bags. i'll put my heart in a box of letters from you i have. i'll disappear and paint it black. and when the memory of my face begins to fade, i'm coming back. cause i need you haunting me....i'll put your pictures in the hallways. i'll spray your perfume on my bed. cause i need you haunting me so i can keep haunting you. i need you haunting me so i can keep haunting you...
Track Name: breathe
you look such a mess in your favorite dress. the way that your mascara runs down to your lips. there's nothing i can say. nothing i can do. cause the way you choose to feel is really up to you. you got to let it out loud. this is not your fault. it out of your hands. the reason that we fall is to get back up again. so don't forget to breathe for me. breathe for me just breathe baby just breathe. god grant the strength to change the things we thing we can and if its meant to happen, then help us understand that all thing have a purpose, an underlining will, from the time when we are broken to the times we start to heal. you got to let it out, let it out loud. this is not your fault...
Track Name: this is life
i was glued to the television when kurt cobain made his decision
i've seen a president lie, i've seen another one die
and i saw the second plane's collision
i was saved on a friday but i still felt so alone
i've seen the world through the eyes of a child whose afraid that he might not make it home

and still we drive

this is life rollin on down the highway drive at night
windows down and the radio blaring
i don't care to know just where we're gonna go


i've seen my dreams become my nightmares i've seen my blessings become a curse i've broken bread with some who cannot tell the difference and still unsure which one of us has it worst

everybody's got addictions drinks and drugs become our vice i think its very sane to try and find escape from a world where everything here dies

and still we drive
Track Name: the game
they said you were cool so i wanted and waited to find a way into your life
now i'm just a fool my heart open and broken and tired of playing the game
cause you just said a mouthful i'm a handful a risk you're not commited to
and life's not a game that you play its a choice day by day
which doors to open and which ones to close

come on and sleep with me i want to see what all the fuss is about cause you're breaking my heart when we're two beds apart

they said you were cool so i wanted and waited to find a way into your life
now i'm just a fool my heart open and broken and tired of playing the game
but i just stare and you don't care you say this love will go no where you say your not committed to change
seems everything that you don't want is something that i haven't got i wish you were committed to change

come on and sleep with me...


i don't think that you know what love is and i know that this is but i'll never be the one that begs to be between your legs again
Track Name: surface
we've established this is where we stand we said after this we'll just be friends but my heart don't really know my head no my heart don't really know my head

we built this wall so we could keep out complications
we built this wall so we won't have to drown in the debts where we can gratify temptation and claim that love will only slow us down

these are not the words that i would like to be saying to you and i hope that in the morning you will feel the same way that i do

we never talk about the strings and the attachments
we just slam the brakes before it crashes can we ever take the chance to see what happens when what we really want we fail to mention

these are not the...

i need you to wake up cause i need to talk to you
i need you to wake up before we let this go
i need you to wake up i want you to wake up oh god won't you wake up

these are not the words...
Track Name: breaking down
you grad your shovel and your digging axe cause you have to be the first in line to burry the past. you put a smile on and try to believe it, i know how much it hurts you to leave it.
you stopped letting me go down on you long before you thought that our love was threw. no other boy could make you cum that way... you said

can you hear that sound its my heart breaking down
and if you listen to it now its the sound of my heart breaking down

my father had a heart attack at 58 i never thought that man was built to break. he told us that if he went under he didn't want them to resuscitate.
my mom believes that i'll become that man she is told me time and time again. she says shes just awaiting the phone call when they tell her that her son is
dead

i will shake it off. i will take it slow. its one small step for a man but one giant leap to let go.
shake it off. i will take it slow cause i know how hard it is
Track Name: i will follow
new york down to mexico. seattle to the oklahome. your ghost will always haunt my soul. los angeles to baltimore. i will follow. i will follow you home. i will follow whereever you go. california to japan. alaska down to burhmingham. i'll be wide awake at 4am. dallas up to michigan. i will follow. i will follow you home. i will follow...where ever you go. no i'm no not no, i'm not telling you lies, i'm telling you this so that you'll be surprised. i'm just telling you this to get shit off my chest its the only way that i have learned to survive. its the only thing that tends to keep my mind straight, my first self defense against pain and heart ache. its the life that i live and the choices i make, its the promise i made to myself i won't break. i will follow...
Track Name: let love in
it does not leave you here to stumble round in darkness and it is careful to always leave on a light. it will heal the sick and bless the bleeding and the broken but that don't mean that love will ever join the fight. cause the heart knows no difference between the colors of our akin and if you want to make a difference just let love in. just let love in. it never fails to see the child inside a person. and it will always stop for dancing in the rain. it doesn't understand the selfish wars we're fighting but to a dying soldier love relieve the pain. cause the heart knows no difference between the colors of our akin and if you want to make a difference just let love in. just let love in. it doesn't understand why blood spills over oil. it doesn't care who's flag is on the marble arch. it doesn't give a damn about the plans for a new world order cause it has seen us through the frontlines and the march. let love in. let love in. to change the world one person at a time we'll stand embracing our diversity to see that we are all the same to see that fear is just a game that we control the choice to play embracing our divinity...in love we are eternally.
Track Name: i will never let you go
i can't keep my possessions after i'm gone
i can't keep my brothers always safe from harm
but the promise i make i take to my grave as sure as the sunrise as sure as the day i will never let you go

i can't promise the world i can't promise the sky
i can't promise that we'll be together should one of us die but the promise i make i take to my grave as sure as the sunrise as sure as the day i will never let you go

and it worries me that you might not know just how deep and wide this river flows so hold onto me and i promise you i will never let you go

so hold onto me and i promise you i will never let you go
Track Name: dancing like this
underneath the universe on her inner thigh just underneath her skirt. underneath the waves something i've said before. underneath the street light hum that brings me home to her back door. there's a place that we embrace...and its calling us.
so we're dancing like this. we dance and we kiss. we're dancing when we make love underneath the street light hum. we're dancing like this, we dance and we kiss. we're dancing when we make love.
just above your tallest tree. just above the tree house and the place where she kissed me. just across the sky something i've said before, in between the space you look inside to see that you are beautiful. there's a place that we embrace and its calling us.
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and its calling us. its calling us...we're calling us.
Track Name: killing me
you cannot hear what i am saying you put your words inside my mouth. you make this harder than it has to be, you make this harder no yourself. hear what you want to hear. say what you want to say. see what you what to see.
your love you see is killing me
and i don't want to waste more time telling you how i feel
i search my soul for new direction but every path leads back to you and when we look into the mirror you will not see the me you knew, i need you like a drug to fill my hole, nobody knows the me inside you've known
your love you see is killing me....
i saw my soul inside your eyes
i've seen our love when it was torn to pieces
i've swallowed more than just my pride
i've swallowed more than just my pride
your love you see is killing me...
your love...
your love...
Track Name: do you believe?
there comes a time to separate the truth from the lies
to see with your mind and let go of what you see with your eyes. like water to wine, like sight for the blind. like moths to the flame, let it scream your name..
do you believe that love will save us from our self destruction...
when the world comes undone will all love become one?
will the weight of the world fall away from the sun? will you tremble in fear if i'm holding you near..me.
like water to wine....
do you believe that love will save us from our self destruction?
i believe...
Track Name: reckless love
do you remember when? the day our love began?
give me a sign our love's still alive no matter how long its been. the way it felt so right, your face the stars would light, the way our souls collide, in the hot summer night.
reckless love, throw stones at your window, let it be you who turns on the light in the dark.
oh how i miss that life, when you'd let me in sometimes, when you'd let me stare as i pulled back your hair away from your eyes. i drive by everyday, i think it keeps me sane, and i'll still throw stones up at your window until the day it breaks.
reckless love...
and even though you never said it much, i know how you felt for me i felt it in your kiss and in your touch and when the rain falls down on me...

reckless love throw stones at your window. let it be you who turns on the light in the dark. reckless love, speeds down the highway, it will always be you who crashes into a place near my heart.
Track Name: where did you go?
so save your breath for the rest of this relationship cause it will get harder and harder to breathe.
and when you fall, find my hand to help you stand again, cause times will get harder and harder than these.
my days go by...
where did you go? i thought i'd be the first in line to know. you know that i have trouble letting go. and when the world has taken everything you have to give i promise i will never say i told you so.

we'll prove two people can stand when everybody else is falling apart. in a world that keeps ending i know you and i will make a new start.
my days go by...