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and soon you find yourself in some casual relationship, something easy with no strings attached. casual sex with no feelings involved. something that isn't complicated. we shake on it...agreed...no complications..no commitments...no labels. no definitions. love will complicate everything, its a risk. it will tie us down, affect our judgement, take its toll on our decisions. because giving your heart to someone means risking them breaking it. because letting the wall down weakens us against hurt. we act bold, fearless, apathetic only to protect the fragility deep down. "can we ever take the chance to see what happens?"

things seem perfect. everything in its right place. focused. driving towards goals. keeping the relationship at the surface. never testing the waters of the deep unknown. never speak of them. never look down. going through the motions. and suddenly everything changes.

it is always at 4:32am some idle tuesday morning that you can't sleep. and you lay there staring at the ceiling. restless, mind racing, in the sacred quiet dark of the night. "i wish you would wake up, cause i need to talk to you."

the heart and the head are two very different entities. we are in control, on top of everything, and then something bigger then us happens.

i don't want this is anymore. i don't want to do this day in day out and one day we move on. i don't want to keep pretending that everything is fine, that everything is calm. cause underneath this surface of ice is an ocean sworming with emotions. underneath this calm composed collectiveness lies the opposite. i want you to wake up. i need you to wake up. cause these are not the words that i would like to be saying to you, and i hope that in the morning you will feel the same way that i do.

excerpt from swallowingthepill.com online journal. this song was written in 2004 and featured on southfm's swallowing the pill(2005). revised by one love

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we've established this is where we stand we said after this we'll just be friends but my heart don't really know my head no my heart don't really know my head

we built this wall so we could keep out complications
we built this wall so we won't have to drown in the debts where we can gratify temptation and claim that love will only slow us down

these are not the words that i would like to be saying to you and i hope that in the morning you will feel the same way that i do

we never talk about the strings and the attachments
we just slam the brakes before it crashes can we ever take the chance to see what happens when what we really want we fail to mention

these are not the...

i need you to wake up cause i need to talk to you
i need you to wake up before we let this go
i need you to wake up i want you to wake up oh god won't you wake up

these are not the words...

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from the anatomy of letting go, released August 8, 2009
one love players. diego zaltron on keys

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paco estrada Dallas, Texas

after nationally touring rock band southfm(mca/geffen/brando) played its final show in oct 2006, band's lead singer/songwriter continued to make music. expanding into different genres and exploring several pallets of sound, this site is the public documentation of the singer song writer's ideas and projects as he learns and grows as an artist. ... more

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